Intro.. ...Back Draw... ..Along Poems.. ...More When my more educated acquaintance Michael mentioned: that: Mr. Egon Bondy: was his spiritual father: I also wanted to have such a resounding spiritual father suddenly: and: in a few moments: I found him in my early youth: with pride: it's Buñuel: whose biography - My Last Sigh - it's the best: what happened to me during the lifelong reading. For a while Rilke wanted be there: but this his elegies are a bit heavy already - after the years. (I dreamed once: when I fell asleep deeply to heavy sweaty 10-minutes sleep on the night shift: that we met - he had a mustache and a bowler hat - but we didn't understand each other. After a while: he left in his tweed suit: narrow and supercilious: by his heron steps: through the tram rails deeper into the Commercial street. I had a romantic understanding that morning: that I will never understand with anyone - I'm there everywhere in addition: just like him.) It happens: that the word: which has been imprinted in my memory: has a different meaning: than I'm giving to it - perhaps because of my self- education: and my occasional bird hastiness - often I rely on instinct - I don't like to browse through the dictionary: I'm ashamed to ask: I hear it differently: I see it differently: my mother spoke like this without a stretching: or with "e" at the end: so: it's possible: that Rilke in my dream: did not really leave in tweed suit: